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“One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began”
So here I am. Beginning. I have left the stage of my life that centers around school, I have left my boyfriend of two years, and soon I will leave this country. So many endings are converging, wrapping around each other and forming a coil for me to balance on. Some days I cry with the twisting ends and feel myself constrain between the strands. Other days it’s as if I have already let go, and I look back to see the wire begin to rust and weaken like the tips of old onion greens.
Now I sit alone with so much emptiness that is slowly transforming into incredible space. In her poem “Blue Iris”, Mary Oliver writes:
my heart panics not to be, as I long to be, the empty, waiting, pure, speechless receptacle.
Sometimes one must be empty before becoming fulfilled. Sometimes one must wait before running breathlessly toward the answer. I am letting go of the panic of wanting to be a certain way. I am learning to accept that my dreams may change and the vision of my future may wobble until it comes to focus on a new light. With these lessons I begin again, and already excitement is growing inside of me.
Katie, whenever you have time to write, I have time to read that writing. You are as beautiful on paper as you are on person; I love you. Never let writing leave your life.
-Sam
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Mmm. I came to write just that. I could read your writing forever. You capture what I feel, or need to hear, and you make it not only accessible to me, but so wonderful in the process!
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*to write what Sam wrote. Not what you wrote lol
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This is beautiful.. describes exactly what I feel right now. You write amazingly well!
Congratulations on being Freshly Pressed and on your wedding bells!!
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thank you so much!
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Oh, I’m not sure whether the ping-back will be automatic, but you’re mentioned in my post: http://opalodyssey.wordpress.com/2011/06/01/new-moon-new-june/
Remain blessed! 🙂
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