February 20A shooting star dashes beside the big dipper. A Northern Saw-whet Owl continues its call in the hemlocks: too-too-too-too Monotone, constant, and clear.
February 21I go to the library to renew a book. “Do I owe anything?” “No, it’s only one day late, and we have a day’s grace.” I walk outside with a day’s grace and a small smile.
February 22In my journal I write: “I feel stuck at the start. I know so much of what I want to write–but how to write it? Then there is that whole part of writing that is a mystery. What will come out and take form once I start?” After two pages of written frustration, I come to this end: “Take action! Happiness is always present. It is a choice. You can choose it.”
February 23“Happiness is a courageous act!” I read on the cover of a journal in the Galaxy Bookstore. I pick up a copy of Seven Days, a free weekly newspaper, and read my horoscope: “Gawker.com notes that American politician John McCain tends to repeat himself — a lot. Researchers discovered that he has told the same joke at least 27 times in five years. (And it’s such a feeble joke, it’s not worth retelling.) In the coming week, Pisces, please please please avoid any behavior that resembles this repetitive, habit-bound laziness. You simply cannot afford to be imitating who you used to be and what you used to do. As much as possible, reinvent yourself from scratch — and have maximum fun doing it.” I realize a truth which I have always known, but just now understand. Life is ENERGY. ENERGY. And I ask myself, where is yours going? What kind of energy is refueling you? And I remind myself: the only constant is that energy is always moving. Allow it to do so. See the world as energy and watch it play~